Love doesn't connect me to them. I just dunno ?why? ..

Digits tells us how long we have been together but its doesn't show me how deeply his in-love with me.

i hate tis feeling of mine.

i needs love..

i needs someone who care for me and love me as what its takes and love me fur who i am...

i'm sad..

i'm sad..

i'm sad..

Maybe god's "menduga" me with all tis..

or

Maybe i'm too unpredictable..

or

Maybe i'm too selfish..

i just dunno it yet. but what i see clearly is that his friends are too important to him.

or

its just mine imagination..

i just couldn't picture it clearly..

Love doesn't seem to belong to me right now.

Ohh.. please...

i'm begging euu..

PS: Lynn BumBum's

I really feel tention right now. What's mine right becoming ure girlfriends. What's mine right to have euu by mine side. Everythings screw up ! I'm upsets over yesterdayy accidents. I always want happiness in my life but yesterdayy turn up to be the worse accident happening to me. Mine loves ones.. Mine family... All fcuking make me irritate. When is the time i can get happiness in me. Get someone who really appreciate me. Get some happiness along all the journey of mine life. I'm upsetting each one of them who loves me. I really don't know what gonna happen next. His seem like avoiding mine family. Is tis called FATE that i have to face. Is tis the end of our hapiness. And the most scary moment is : Is tis the end of our relationship?.. I just couldn't know the answer. Patient?.. That is always i have to sayy. One after next. I really stress up over it ! I feel like giving up. I feel like shed a tears right now. Why happiness comes just awhile?.. I hate it ! I hate myself! I hate every single things that happening to me. Ohh, I really needs each and everyone of you to give me a right path thru mine life journey. I needs each and evryone to support me. I really wanna change but ive tried and i fail ! I'm useless isn't it ..